Whew!

Okay, so I'm going to get back in gear with this blogging thing. Life got really crazy the past few weeks and it just didn't happen. Rats. Oh well.

I am really looking forward to this week. I'm really in the mood to clean this house up! So far today I have already cleaned up most of I and N's room... dug everything out from under dressers and from under the bed, things like that. Awesome. Feels good already!

A has taken it upon himself to clean out the hallway closet. As in he has pulled out just about every game we own and dumped them on the floor. Oh well... I needed to clean that closet up anyway. Now I just need to find a way to lock those doors so he can't do it all over again once I get it cleaned up. Cleaning it up will be rather interesting, too, since the closet is directly across the hallway from his door. So we'll see if he gets a nap today. Ugh.

Gonna wash the walls this week, too, and keep up on laundry, dishes, and bathrooms. I really need to steam clean my carpets, but I'm not sure if that will happen this week or not. Hopefully... but not likely.

And thankfully my foot is starting to feel better. It still hurts when I walk on it a lot, but mostly it's just achy. (is that how you spell that? it looks funny)

So, all in all, life is looking good!

Rock on.

Peace out, dudes.

Rock On

3 days in a row now I have gotten my fat ass up by 6 to exercise. OH. MY. WORD. Sooooooo tired. I know plenty of people get up that early if not earlier for whatever reason, but man alive do I miss that extra 30-45 minutes of sleep. Holy Moley. (dude, how the hell do you spell that?)

***Please excuse the swearing. Apparently losing sleep makes my IQ go down and my need to swear go up***

I'm so dang glad that I have made myself get up. Though I was going to Turbo Jam it up this morning, our DVD player isn't working so I just did Just Dance. Which is fine by me, cause man that shit is fun. (see, there I go again) I'm so glad that no one has ever filmed me playing that game. I'm sure I look like a bigger freak than usual. But that can't be helped. If you haven't tried it, I highly recommend it. Especially with a friend or two or three. The calories burned by laughing alone makes it worth it.

Okay. So. Spring cleaning. Over the last two days I have gotten out ALL of the kids' clothes. I have culled out the ones to donate and throw away. I have sorted them according to size and gender. And I have boxed and labeled. Sadly, I can't find my duct tape so I'm not sure that the boxes are going to stay closed, but it's close enough, right? Right. That's what I thought, too. Now I have to get it all put back somewhere. Great. Though it'll be nice to get my living room back.

Unfortunately, when I do projects like this one, the rest of my house goes down the shitter. About the only thing I have kept up on is the dishes. A person needs plates and glasses and forks and such to eat, so they must be done. And dishes these days take longer to clean up. Wanna know why? Our dishwasher is leaking. Awesome. So... I had to go out and buy one of those dish drying rack thingys (bought 2, actually) and the kids and I have been washing all of our dishes by hand. Most of the time I don't think it's too big of a deal. It would be easier if Alex didn't feel the need to help. But there's no stopping a 1yo when he's got his mind set on something. Well, short of putting him in a straight jacket and locking him in his room. And I just can't ever seem to find a straight jacket in his size. Maybe I should check craigslist.

Okay. So my goals for today (drum roll please):

• Put these blasted boxes of clothes away
• Laundry
• Dishes
• Sweep AND Mop
• Maybe bathrooms
• Clear out some kitchen clutter
• Go for a run
  

Not sure that all of that will happen, but as long as I cross some of them off, I'll be happy. Cause seriously dudes, I am TIRED. *sigh*

Peace out, friends. Thanks for reading. =D

Back to it

I actually got my butt up this morning to exercise. Finally. It was really fun. I'm soooo tired, but it was totally worth it. Rock on.

Today I'm going to start going through ALL of the kids' clothes. Heaven help me. I used to try to sort through them when I pulled them out of their drawers for good. Then I just started shoving it all in boxes as I pulled it out. So. I have a lot of work to do. It'll be nice to clear up a little bit of space though. I still have to save a lot of it for passing on to my brother and sister, but I'm sure some of it can go. =D

So today I will be focusing on that, plus doing some laundry and dishes. I don't think I'll worry about much else.

Yay for spring cleaning!

Anniversary Lameness

So.... yesterday was our 7th anniversary. Woot! Which is why I didn't blog about my cleaning plans. I didn't have any. =D We didn't really do much, which is just fine with me. It's was nice and low-key. The best part of the day was bed time (and no, not for those reasons, thanks to Aunt Flo) but Dave had sneaked a present into my pillow case. (this is definitely where the lameness begins) So I was prepared to give Nathan a talkin-to in the morning for hiding something of his in my pillow but when I pulled it out I just started LAUGHING. Dave totally bought me a topsy-turvy. ROCK ON! I really wanted one (I want a few more, actually) so this was awesome. Totally. Good job, Dave!

Yes. Lame. I know. But happy and funny lame.



Okay, so for cleaning today... I pretty much have to do the whole upstairs. We have a friend coming over for supper. So bathrooms, sweeping, vacuuming, dishes, plus lots of laundry. Sweet. *sigh*

Later dudes.

Yesterday

Yesterday went pretty darn well. I didn't get to my room, but I got a couple of other things done. I ran an errand for Dave before I went for my run. My run felt SO good. I didn't get all "meh" in the middle like I sometimes do. Ran a solid 2 mi. which isn't bad for my third run in 2 weeks. I'm really trying to get back into a groove. Maybe I will finally start to lose some of this fat! Wouldn't that be awesome? Heck yeah! Maybe I will no longer be asked when my baby is due. That would definitely be happy. =)

So for cleaning, I think I got to everything other than my room. I swept/mopped, did the kids' bathroom (didn't get to mine), dishes, laundry (got 2 loads folded and put away) and I vacuumed. Awesome.

Nate and I played the Wii for almost an hour together. That's always a blast. He totally beat me a bowling. I accidentally beat him at baseball. I felt really bad. I didn't mean to! We did a connect-the-dot, too. Nate really needs to work on his coloring/writing skills.

So, overall, a pretty good day.

Oh, and Dave took us out to eat, and then we went to family swim. Totally awesome!!!

Peace.

3/12

Goodness I hate when I don't sleep well. I'm rather proud of myself for getting up earlier than I "had" to this morning. =) Yay me.

Okay. So what should I do today? I have no idea...

Maybe I'll start with the basics. Fridays have lots of basic cleaning anyway so I don't know if I'll manage to add any extras, but I'll try.

• Sweep/Mop
• Vacuum
• Dishes
• Laundry
• Bathrooms

Yuck. I hate bathrooms.

• Work on my room some more

That might be about it.

Some non-cleaning goals would be good for today, too, though.

• Run at the Y
• Play some games with Nathan
• Family swim! (assuming that Dave gets home in time)

I sure hope I can get everything done. =) And maybe even in a timely fashion. Though that might be pushing it...

Later, dudes. I really wish I could go crawl back into bed. *sigh*

Peace.

Here We Go!

Good Morning World! *yawn*

Okay, so I'm not up very early, but it's still earlier than usual. So in my book that = mission accomplished. Sweet.

*yawn*

It's times like these that I wish I was a coffee drinker. Oh well.

Okay, so what am I going to get done today?

• Sweeping
• Dishes
• Laundry
• Make a list of spring cleaning fun
• Clean my room!!! (it's messy... yuck)

Okay. I think that's an okay list. Mostly the basics that I would probably do anyway. But I've got a couple of extras on there. Sounds good. See you tonight!

*yawn*

A New Game Plan

Okay, so the first thing you need to know before I even get to the game plan part is that I am the QUEEN of lack-of-follow-through. I'm not kidding. I really really stink at following through on anything. Okay. Now to the important part.

The Game Plan:
~Get up earlier and post a bloggy about my goals for the day.
~Work on my goals.
~Post another bloggy or at least a comment at the end of the day letting the world know what I did or did not accomplish.

Awesome.



So now you are asking... "Why are you doing this?" I know you are. I can already tell that you're hanging on my every word. I hope you're not hoping to be blown away... cause it ain't gonna happen friends. I, however, feel much more content now that I have my little game plan.

Okay, so why I'm doing this. #1 is to blog more. I enjoy sitting and writing, and this will give me a topic without any effort whatsoever on my part. #2 is that I am EXTREMELY lazy. I am trying to improve on that. I need to get more done. Plain and simple. And that would in-turn lead to me being a better mommy/wife, which is super super important. Cause I kind of stink at the whole mommy thing. #3 is so that if any of you happen to randomly read one of my blogs with what I'm going to do that day, then you can totally call me on it via facebook or whatever.

Sweet.

I'm excited.

Now, before any of you jump in with a "you're not that lazy" or "You don't stink at the mommy thing" which we moms all automatically do when someone points out one of their faults, let me explain a little further. I believe very strongly that it is super-extra-important to be aware of our shortcomings. Not to dwell on them, but to improve on them. I know too many people that are too okay with how they are now. There's ALWAYS something that you can improve on. I think that the moment you are content with who you are is when you have to start all over. Okay, so maybe that's a little harsh, but you get the picture.

None of you knew me when Isabel was little. I can promise you that I was horrible as a mother, wife and housekeeper. Really. There's no excuse. I have had some people try to give me that "young" excuse, but I refuse it. Seriously. The way I was was not okay. I was very depressed, but I feel like mostly it was poor choices and trying to avoid reality. So. I have come a LONG way. My house is still cluttered, but it's not as dirty as it used to be. Nate watches too much TV so that I can sit on my lazy butt, but not as much as Isabel watched when she was his age. I feel like I put truth to my faults and because I did that I have been able to make changes. They have been small changes, but I have gradually become much better at all of them. I still have so far to go, though! Depression is always kind of lingering and trying to move in again. I have good days and bad days with everything. But I just want to take the next steps.

Now... if only I could find some good parts about myself to also focus on! lol I fail at that part, dudes. It's good to find things that are good about yourself. It's MUCH easier to find the bad stuff. *sigh* If any of you figure out the secret to that, please let me know. ;)

So... here's to follow-through! I hope I can pull it off. And blow you away with my awesomeness.

Rock.

Peace out.

Good times...

Oh my goodness did I have a good time this last week. I got to go to a yummy restaurant with some girlfriends and then I got to celebrate the 3rd birthday of MOM. Totally awesome. =) And THEN I went with some friends to a karaoke bar after the party. That was a super good time. I miss getting to go dance and all that like we did in college. So I really enjoyed myself. Made a fool of myself, too, but that' nothing new. And I'm pretty sure the only reason I was invited was because I had given one of the ladies there a ride to the party, and she wasn't sure how to tell me she didn't need a ride home because she wasn't going home, etc. But I had fun anyway. =) I'm trying force myself into more situations that typically make me uncomfortable and self-conscious. It's really hard sometimes, but I think it's important to do. So I went. I laughed. I danced (poorly). I just had a good time.

I didn't get up and sing (which is perfectly okay because I'm a lousy singer) but I keep hearing songs and thinking how fun they would be to hear at a karaoke bar. And maybe one day I'll even sing one of them... as long as I have some friends join me. Seriously. I'm BAD at singing.

So there ya go. I hope this week is as fun as last week was. =)

Peace.

My "Fit"

So yesterday I was chatting with a friend about how we moms can very easily lose ourselves as we become Mom. And we talked about the things you can do to reconnect with yourself. Finding your style, making your health/fitness a priority, finding hobbies, and most importantly, finding friends. Our girlfriends can be our life-line when we're sinking down into the motherhood vortex. Some women don't ever seem to have a problem with knowing who they are and what they need to stay sane and happy. Others of us don't have it so easy. And, of course, there are several different levels of disconnect.

So friends can be our saviors. (and our husbands, but honestly I think girlfriends help more) I have come a long way with finding who I am, but I still have so so far to go. I'm much happier than I once was. But it's still a struggle.

For the most part, I get along with pretty much everyone. But here's the problem. I have never in my life felt like I 'fit' anywhere. I don't have best friends. Mostly what I have are acquaintances. People that I enjoy being around, and seem enjoy my company. But they are not people that seek me out for the extra little things. Granted, part of that is my own fault, as I don't ask people to join me in things. But that's only because of that little bitty hidden part of my personality that I'm pretty sure very few people even see in me. I am very self-conscious and typically assume that people are nice to me only because they have to be. So it sort of feeds itself. I drive myself crazy. It's a very lonely world when you feel as though people only pretend to like you. And really, how do you know for sure that someone does enjoy being around you?

And it's because of this issue about not fitting in that I have been contemplating leaving my position (well, 3 positions) with MOM. It would break my heart to do it, but I can't help but wonder if they wouldn't be glad to see me gone. I've thought about this for a long time, but I haven't been able to come up with a solution. I would really like to someday have a group of friends that I 'fit' with. Maybe someday.

So I wonder how everyone else defines "friend" I think I have a different definition than most people. I think what most people consider a best friend is what I think of as just a regular friend. I can only think of one person that I would consider a best friend. But a friend is someone you can talk to about pretty much everything. They know a lot about you, they put effort into the friendship, they read between the lines and notice when you're struggling. Things like that.

Ugh! I hate when the big "D" sneaks up on me. It's so hard to fight your way out of it. Even being aware of it doesn't help. Maybe it's the lack of sunshine.

Changing it up...

Today I am NOT going to discuss boot camp (which kicked my ass on Monday) Nope. Today I'm going to branch back out into something that has nothing to do with fitness. The anticipation is giving you tingles, isn't it?

Now. Anyone have a topic? Oh, I guess I should have thought of that BEFORE I started this, eh? Oh well. We'll just improvise. I'm good at improv. But, my dear friends, are YOU?

So I guess this is going to be a 'freewrite' We used to do those in Soph English in HS. (WOW I'm lame) Basically a freewrite is, well, writing without rules. You're supposed to just write and if you get stuck you're supposed to write about being stuck until something pops into your head. You're also not supposed to use punctuation, but I just can't tolerate that, so I'm going to bend the rules a little. Hope you don't mind. And please, please, don't tell Mrs. B. Thanks.

I've been thinking about writing again lately. I've wanted to be a writer for a long time. So I thought to myself tonight that maybe I should write in my blog more. Maybe that will get the juices flowing. Maybe. It's not really working so far. hehehe Instead I'm just rambling away. I get the strangest urges to do things like writing sometimes. I don't know why. I'm not good at it. I get the urge to go take pictures, draw, cook a fancy meal, etc. It's very strange, and definitely sporadic. Maybe there's some creative part of me that's trying to break out. The walls are pretty thick though. LOL Seriously, I fail at ALL of these things. And all the others I try. Lame-o dudes. LAME-O.

Maybe I should just take classes in one of them? But that would mean picking something and sticking with it long enough to make it worthwhile. Yeah, that's not likely. Not likely at all. Sticking with something is something else I'm not so good at. =D

I better end it with that. I don't see this having a 'high' point to end on, so... *shrug*

Later, yo. Peace.